A poem depicting the internal turmoil of a woman who has just been betrayed by her lover
I refuse to believe
That they were all lies
I refuse to believe
There wasn’t love in your eyes
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I refuse to believe
All those dates were false
The hand-holding, the fun
Long walks at nightfall
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I refuse to accept
I haven’t known you forever
How could you do this
After all that time together?
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Were those moments lies too?
Were the promises all fake?
Was this love a transaction?
A simple give and take?
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Tell me once, just once
That you love me deep inside
And that it was just a farce
A disguise, a sheep’s hide
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I’ve been with you for so long
I know you aren’t this way
You’re the charismatic man
Who once made me sway
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What is our love reduced to?
Just the ashes remain
Even after all those pleas?
All that effort was in vain?
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I refuse to believe
You used me as you did
That it was just an auction
And I was the biggest bid
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I refuse to believe
You took what you had to
And left me desolate and alone
Because I still love you
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I love you, I love you
And I know I always will
So I still wait for you, hopefully,
Sitting at the window sill